TIME OUT!

I couldn't take it any longer. I had to quit my HCG diet for the moment, and have switched to my weight watchers for the next couple of weeks just to get some variety. Then I will hop back onto my HCG diet for one more month, which will be the last time for this year. My goal is to drop 32 more lbs this year, but we will see. I just was getting so tired of eating the same meals every day. I had salad with 4 ozs of chicken on top, a melba toast, and a peice of fruit every single day for lunch for the last 3 weeks just about. I couldn't even eat it most days, because I was so sick of it. I gotta find a way to add more variety to my meals and get creative when I go back on it.

My batteries & bulbs hands on science lesson, although loud, went really well. The kids learned, they figured out what they were supposed to, they got the picture. So I was stoked about today's static electricity lesson, with balloons and such. Pure chaos. The kids didn't want to follow directions, they didn't want to do the work on their lab sheets, they were loud and crazy..... it was very disappointing. My teacher says that maybe we shouldn't do too much with these kinds of things for nwo since they can't do what they are supposed to do. We were supposed to do electromagnets next week with batteries and nails, but it looks like that won't happen. Not only that, but for some reason I can't get it to work, even though I did it last semester in my science class. Ack! But if I can get it to work, I will be doing it as a demonstration for the kids instead, which is better than nothing I suppose.

Tomorrow is mine & Alan's anniversary. 5 years. Although we've been together roughly 10. We are heading to the state fair to see The Black Crows, which is one of Alan's favorite bands. I don't think I've ever seen them live, so it should be fun. We are on the floor though. I'm thinking as tired as I have been lately after being on my feet all day at school, being on my feet all evening at a concert doesn't sound too appealing! :) Oh well, it should be fun.

Although I am enjoying student teaching, I am so done with not having any time. My days are over in a flash, and it's driving me nuts, since I don't get near enough done in a day. I have no idea how I am going to juggle a full time job and my family when the time comes. I know women do it all the time. I did it for years when the boys were younger. But I also didn't have 3 kids then, nor was I very good at housekeeping, nor did I really cook..... I didn't bake then...... I didn't scrapbook.... I didn't sew...... I didn't go to the zoo and omniplex or have mommy friends and play dates........ I didn't get to spend lots of quality time with the kids....... I see so much stuff that is going to get sacrificed in the process, and it makes me sad. :( I'm excited about being a teacher, I just don't like the trade off.