what a day.....

Monday, July 06, 2009
what a day.....
Current mood: distraught
It's been one of those whirlwind days, which really is the story of my life, so I don't know what I am talking about.

Today was Alan's birthday. He got a massage from Jamie, and one of his gifts from the kids, and then his dad & step-mom came down from Duncan and took us to dinner and gave him the coolest telescope ever. It even has a built in GPS and you can tell it to find a planet, or star, or constellation and it finds it for you!! I am so excited, I can't wait to learn how to use it!! Tomorrow we are having his little birthday dinner here at the house.

I spent about 5 hours yesterday reading and watching lecture videos for my astronomy test that was supposed to be taken by today. I soon realized I should have started much earlier. It was much more in depth than the first test. I took the kids to my mom's house first thing this morning so that I could spend some more time studying and then going to go take the test before we had to go out to dinner tonight. I probaly studied for 4 or 5 hours again today, and I still don't feel like I have it. There are like at least 100 new terms in the 6 chapters for this test, and several diagrams and tables I am supposed to know how to draw and label, and it's about how the sun was made, what it does, how stars evolve, how we classify them, etc. There is SOOOO much to it. I e-mailed my teacher this morning to ask if I could take the test late, he had mentioned in orientation that he was willing to work with people if you realized you weren't ready to take a test. So I waited and checked my e-mail allll day as I studied, and didn't hear from him. I was so stressed out that I was going to fail this test.

Also this morning my Dr's office called and told me they couldn't fit me in July, so they were going to schedule me for Aug 13th for my surgery (my kids first day back at school), and I set all that up, and hten dug out all my paperwork for my student teaching classes for next semester so I could figure who I should e-mail or call to let them know that I would be having surgery that day since I start back to school on the 10th, and it is a huge deal to miss even one day of this semester. But once I started looking into the schedule, I realized I don't even go to classes on the 13th or 14th, so it couldn't have worked out better if I tried! I go on Monday the 10th and tuesday the 11th from 8a-5p, then on wed the 12th from 9a-noon, and then I don't go back until monday the 17th when I check in at my elementary school. So that gives me 5 days to heal and recoop, which is good. I will get to take the kids to their first day of school and take pictures as always too, which I am excited about. I really thought I was going to miss that since I start school before they do.

So I studied up until the time that Alan's dad & step-mom got here at 4pm. Then my mom got here with my kids and dropped them off, still no work from my teacher. I just knew I was going to have to run up to OCCC after dinner and take this test and that I was going to fail. So we went to dinner, and I figured I would check my e-mail on my phone as we were about to leave there at 6:30pm, and my teacher had responded and said I could take up to another week to take it, it would just cost me 10% of my grade on the test. I figured though that if I took it today, I would probaly make like a 70 if I am lucky, and if I take a few more days and really learn the material, then I could possibly make like a 90, so then it would still be an 81, after the deduction. So I decided to do that. So I was sooo relieved that I didn't have to run and take the test, but still stressed out that I have to do really well to still get a good grade after losing 10%, plus trying to figure out how I am going to find time to learn the material. Tomorrow if the dinner party, which I will be cleaning, decorating and cooking for. I'm hoping to take the test on wednesday, so that I can start studying for the next test which has to be taken by next friday. Sigh.

my head is spinning. It hurts too. I have had a pressure headache for 2 days now, and it is driving me crazy. I'm quite certain it is probably from stress.

I restarted my diet today, which makes today and tomorrow gorge days, so that's been fun after not getting to eat much. I am going to try REALLY hard not to cheat in even the tiniest form until my birthday on August 8th, which will almost be the end of my 40 days anyways, so shouldn't hurt too bad. And then that be the only day I cheat until the end of the diet (which is 40 days, plus 6 weeks after, quite a bit of time). But I want to do it, so maybe I can. I lost about 20 lbs and 20 inches the first round, and I didn't even complete it, so I'm hoping to do even better this next round.

I am tired, and have way too many new astronomy, and astrophysics facts swimming around in my head......